Anxietedious

I have an ultrasound scheduled for this morning at 9:45am.  Despite  having done these types of things for decades now,  I still have some level of anxiety surrounding them: driving here, getting to the right place, checking in, getting through it, getting back to work, finding a parking space, etc. etc. It’s also a break in my workday routine, which I hate. In order to lessen the anxiety, I prepare as best as possible: verify my time and place several times, assess the time it will take to drive here, factoring in time for traffic and getting lost (which I do far more than I should,) and being ready to go when it’s time to leave. I thought I was on target today and pulled into the hospital parking garage … at 8:15am – one and a half hours early.  I have no idea why I was thinking I needed to leave at 7:40am to drive 30 minutes for a 9:45am appointment, but here I am, killing time in some waiting room in the hospital for 90 minutes until my appointment, which seemed less stressful than going somewhere and coming back.

Sigh.

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I hate my guts!

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I have had (new and different) ongoing digestive issues since the end of February (feeling full after only a few bites into a meal, feeling full for hours or days after even small meals, lack of appetite, feeling bloated, cramps, rapid weight loss, accompanied by lack of energy & light-headedness) so I finally caved and went to see my Primary Care Physician last week. He thinks it is either my gallbladder (which would mean surgery) or Gastroparesis (which would mean medications and a new diet regime.)  I am going for an ultrasound on Wednesday. If they see nothing, we can rule out gallbladder and test me for Gastroparesis.

It is hard to say what I am hoping the results of my testing will be. On one hand, I’ve had 14 surgeries so far, so the idea of my poor abdomen and body going under the knife yet AGAIN, and the ensuing lost time from work and recovery period,  leaves a lot to be desired. On the other hand, having yet another digestive condition that may result in longtime dietary restrictions, in addition to all the ones I already have, isn’t really something I can “Woohoo!” about, either.

In the event this turns out to be gastroparesis, I have been following a recommended gastroparesis diet I found on the web, which requires me to limit myself to liquids for 3 days, then liquids and soft foods for 3 days, then a select few other food types for the next 3 days. Also, this diet allows me to incorporate the 2 suggestions my PCP made to increase my protein and calorie intake: muscle milk and peanut butter (as tolerated.) This is not a permanent diet, but a way for me to give my body a chance to get back in balance so it is functioning properly. I figured it couldn’t hurt to try it, since I wasn’t eating all that much lately anyway.  Worst case scenario: it has no impact; best case scenario: I start to feel better in a few days. I’m on day two of the liquids, so far, and haven’t felt much better.

We shall see.

 

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Safe as a giraffe 

It was warm and muggy here, and then began to thunder and downpour  like the end times. Rita Mae was scared of the rain (par for the course) and began shaking, so I gave her a special buddy to make her feel safe. She eventually calmed down and fell asleep. 


I think she has finally out-precioused Harvey, for once.

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In response…

…to someone posting something on Facebook that wasn’t true (an alleged quote by someone who never said it,) I told them it wasn’t true and linked to the website where it was debunked, 

They responded that it didn’t matter if it wasn’t true because they liked the sentiment so they were leaving it up…

I responded: 

“In a world where we’re told every day that the truth doesn’t matter, the truth matters more than ever.”
Spreading false information that you know is false information just because it gives you the feelz is bullshit, and you are part of the problem. Either verify the information you’re sharing or don’t share it. Don’t put words in other people’s mouths. 

Take responsibility for the things you say and do!

Sigh…

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Dressing Myself

I was craving salad for dinner but we didn’t have veggies or dressing in the house (we usually do but I was sick last week and we didn’t make it out to grocery shop) and feeling too lazy and tired to go to the store.

So we ordered a giant salad from a local pizza place, and I searched for a balsamic vinaigrette dressing recipe on Google. I whipped up a batch and it was delicious. I will be making it again. Here’s the recipe:

1/2 cup EVOO
2 Tbs Balsamic Vinegar

1 Tbs Red Wine Vinegar ( I had none, so I used Red Wine.)

1 Tbs Minced Garlic (I used pre minced garlic from a jar.)

1 Tbs Lemon Juice 

1 Tbs Powdered Mustard (I had none, so I just used regular mustard)

Ground Black Pepper

Sea Salt

Shake it up good and go to town on a salad. 

Mmmmmmm!

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Fun Home

Yesterday, the hubby and I drove to Hartford, CT (regular followers of my blog know this is a frequent trip for me/us, because it is where my best friend, Jim, and his husband, Ken, live.) 

This past Christmas,  I had bought Jeffrey tickets to see “Fun Home” at theBushnell Theater for the 8:00 showing last night. We got here in time for a short visit and freshening up before we headed to one of our favorite local restaurants, Salute. Once at the theater, a nice usher offered to get a picture of the 4 of us in front of the “Fun Home” sign:


(L-R: Ken, Jim, Me, Jeffrey)

Wikipedia describes the musical as follows:

“Fun Home, subtitled A Family Tragicomic, is a 2006 graphic memoir by the American cartoonist Alison Bechdel, author of the comic strip Dykes to Watch Out For. It chronicles the author’s childhood and youth in rural Pennsylvania, United States, focusing on her complex relationship with her father. The book addresses themes of sexual orientation, gender roles, suicide, emotional abuse, dysfunctional family life, and the role of literature in understanding oneself and one’s family

The show was phenomenal. The narrator is the adult “current” Alison, and she weaves the tale of her life and complex relationship with her father, through memories and musical numbers, played out through scenes of her younger self at home and her younger adult self at college. 

There are difficult moments, for sure, but the emotional ride is worth it. A couple of the songs and many of the experiences really hit home, and I imagine would, also, for those who have struggled with their gender identity or sexuality, felt like a stranger in the roles fostered upon them, and who may have, as a child, recognized “something” in older gay people we may have seen or met, without really understanding what that was or that we were even meeting people like ourselves. As young Alison sang so succinctly as she saw her first atypical “butch” woman:

“I know you.”

I will definitely see this again, given the chance!

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Giraffe Treat

My coworkers know of my love for giraffes (and superheroes) and so I teased them about not getting any cards, gifts or cake for World Giraffe Day. 

I spoke too soon. 

Shortly after I got home, there was a surprise knock on my front door: it was my Mom, standing there with a rice crispie cake in the shape of a giraffe.


Pretty cool! Thanks, Mom.

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Happy World Giraffe Day


Today is World Giraffe Day. What else could I wear but my Spo Giraffe Shirt? Also, I accessorised with my giraffe earrings:

World Giraffe Day is an annual event initiated by the GCF (Giraffe Conservation Foundation) to celebrate the longest-necked animal on the longest day or night (depending on which hemisphere you live!) of the year – June 21st – every year!
With only 100,000 giraffe remaining in the wild, WGD is a worldwide celebration of these amazing and much loved animals, to raise support, create awareness and shed light on the challenges giraffe face in the wild.

Zoos, schools, NGOs, governments, institutions, companies and conservation organisations around the world host events on June 21st every year to raise awareness and support for giraffe in the wild.

Yay, giraffe!

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Paw’s Day

My health has been poor lately and when that happens, I tend to withdraw from the world as much as possible and focus all me energy on getting through it, doing what I have to, resting when I can, and getting better.  I’m grateful I chose to “father” two precious furry kids full of love that stay by me during these rough times and keep me company, comforting me. Today, my precious baby girl Rita Mae is cuddling with me and making me feel like the most important guy in the world:


Happy Paw’s Day to all the Doggy Daddies out there! (And Kitty Caretakers, Too!)

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New Giraffe Art for the House

 

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