So the snow is almost gone and we are back to spring like weather. Let’s see if it lasts for more than a day.
I was filled with anxiety at the beginning of the week, because I had two medical appointments, one on Tuesday and one today. That meant disrupting my daily routine: getting up earlier both days, showering and maintenance to Roger (it’s a process showering with an ostomy,) adjusting my coffee and breakfast intake to avoid “issues,” leaving the house, driving somewhere, and being late to start work two days in a row, each of which would fill me with anxiety on their own – together, they can be crippling. On top of that, I had to have discussions with two medical professionals, and get a dental procedure done, so emotional and physical discomfort joined the party. However, I got through it all, and now I am back home and back to my normal routine, so my anxiety levels have dropped tremendously and I can go around pretending I’m a normal, functioning human being again. Working and staying (mostly) home these last two years has really made me an introverted hermit and eroded most of my social skills and coping mechanisms.
When I make my re-entry to the outside world later this year, it will not be easy…or pretty.