Feast or Famine

This may not look like much, but it’s a delicious feast after 3 days on ice chips.

These are my dinner companions.

Peter the pachyderm (from the BFJ) and Stephan the giraffe (from the hubby.)

I gave my husband the day off from hospital duty and the BFJ drove up from CT to spend the day with me, playing Skip-Bo, Mancala, and just helping me stay distracted and entertained.

From what, you ask?

It’s all bad news. My intestines are basically kaput. I’ve been scheduled for surgery ASAP, and on Tuesday, I become a lifetime Ostomate. It’s not what I wanted, especially now, but there’s no real choice, other than to keep suffering with broken guts. I’ll stay in the hospital until my surgery, then another week or more post-surgery until I’m cleared to go home, where I’ll be recouping for 6 weeks. All of our holiday plans have been cancelled, and most of my decorating plans are laid to rest for this year.

I won’t lie, it hit me hard, and I’ve had a few emotional breakdowns, but it’s time to put out my stiff upper lip (again) and carry on. Life is what happens to you when you’re busy making other plans. My body’s been trying to quit on me for years, so it’s time to go on the offensive. I can only hope this will give me back the control of my life I’ve been missing since last year. It will be a huge adjustment, for sure.

So I’m just focusing on getting through it and getting back to my home with my husband and dogs as soon as possible. Then, all will be well again. Different, but well.

21 thoughts on “Feast or Famine

  1. Congratulations on eating again!!
    I’m sorry it has come to the ostomy solution, but doesn’t this mean that your guts won’t hurt anymore? Anyway, best of luck to you. It’s going to be a rough rest of the year. Hang in there!
    love you!


  2. Sean. I read your blog every day. I never comment. ( I know, I know). So sorry to read that you are having troubles again. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Hope your healing is quick and easy. 💜💜💜 Karen


  3. I’m so sorry to hear this is happening. I hope the surgery goes well, and you have a recovery that allows you to regain your life. Hang in there.


  4. As previously asserted: not a great start to your weekend.

    I am glad the BFJ was able to come up and spend time with you. I am also glad that you have access to medical care, and that you will be getting surgery soon. I will be thinking hopeful thoughts for you.


  5. It is okay to feel what you are feeling. Make plans for the future. Dream of what will be, not what won’t. Take care of yourself.


  6. Oh my gosh!! I am so sorry to read this. I have been away from the blogging universe for about a month. I just went back through and read some of your more recent posts. You are in my thoughts and I will send positive energy to upstate NY. I know it is easier said than done, but try and keep your spirits up.


  7. Oh Sean, I am so sorry to hear that it has come to this. I (like everyone else) hope that this is the end to your suffering and life can become more normal. I have not shared this before, but two years ago I had to have ostomy surgery. It was hard to accept, but now it is OK. I hope you can be feeling better real soon and maybe you will have the energy to decorate some. Take care and know that this guy in Wisconsin is sending all kinds of love and healing thoughts


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