Day 3 of fever, chills, sweats, headache, coughing, and body aches, so I finally called the doc and have an appointment tomorrow morning. Not sure there’s anything he can do at this point, but no harm in going.
I had a brief period earlier this morning when my temp dropped to normal (97.8) and I felt a little better, so I thought it might be on its way out, but no such luck…my fever spiked and I was back to feeling like death warmed over within the hour.
It was an emotional day, as I broke down in tears several times, cursing my poor health and back to back illnesses. I’m feeling guilt over missing even more work, and Jeffrey having to do everything, again. My nerves are completely shot.
To distract myself from getting too depressed, I’ve been watching episodes of various TV shows on Hulu and Netflix. It’s disturbing how many shows involve people being picked on, harassed, bullied, and ostracized. I’ve grown so sensitive to it, that I can’t bear even a few minutes of someone (kids or adults) being picked on or ridiculed. Even on shows I love, I skip scenes or episodes where it’s used as a plot device. There’s so much real hate and abuse in the world, I want to escape from it when I watch stuff, not see more of it, so I’ve been sticking to “reality” travel, cooking, and redecorating shows.
I’ll feel less anxious when I get confirmation tomorrow that this is “just” the flu and I have to let it run its course. My fear is that it’s something else and I’ll be shipped back to the hospital.
Feverish fingers crossed.