My health continues to ebb and flow with the day. Some days I feel like I could run a marathon. Some days I feel like I did run a marathon and I’m ready to collapse. Sometimes it’ll even change throughout the day. This morning I felt like I was on my last leg and wondered how I’d make it through the day, exhausted and wracked with cramping and bloating pain. Now I feel totally fine, almost energetic, no discomfort whatsoever.
Yesterday, my Mom picked me up from work and drove us home, where I immediately proceeded to make dinner (shepherd’s pie and stuffing – both low residue, low-fat recipes), which we promptly ate once Jeffrey arrived home; then only sat for a few minutes to rest after dinner before heading out to see “The Help” at a nearby theater. (This is a fantastic movie, albeit with some hard to watch moments, and I highly recommend it.) Honestly, the work day had already depleted me, but we had made plans for a dinner and movie night with Mom so I felt obligated to see it through. By the time I got home, I was practically dead on my feet and fell into bed; I was out like a light within minutes of closing my eyes.
I don’t really know what’s causing this roller coaster of energy or why I am having sporadic bouts of stomach cramps and gas pains at this point. I’m beginning to suspect I may have developed a lactose intolerance, as I am only having Ensure for breakfast and lunch these days, and my dinners have been very light and small portioned, avoiding all foods high in fiber or roughage. Since the pains seem to be more frequent in the morning and early day, my suspicion of the reaction to dairy is high. I’ll have to get that checked out. In the meantime, I’m going to make a concerted effort to avoid it.
I gained 3-4 pounds back from my lowest weight during my last bout of (consistent) illness. I was 173.6, but am back up to 177. I am not eating a lot yet, but my activity is really low as well, so I’m not sure if I will maintain or gain or lose over the next few weeks. I want to nourish my body, but I want to avoid putting on the pounds, which grows more complicated as my diet restrictions increase and my exercise capabilities decrease.
Right now, I’m just taking things one day at a time and doing what I can during my pockets of feeling good.