I give up…


…on trying to sleep any later this morning, that is. I’ve been awake since 4:30 AM and, although I enjoyed lying in the darkness and silence next to my sleeping husband for a bit, I became restless and needed to get up before I woke him.

My current meds seem to be working. I feel better this morning than I have in a long time. It has been a long two weeks, especially this last week, and I don’t honestly know where I found the energy or strength to make it through a week of work, bowling, doctors appointments and a family birthday dinner (with children, no less – IN PUBLIC), but somehow I did. (Honestly, I credit my husband for most of that…he supported me through all of it, yet again, with ne’er a bitch or moan, unlike me who whined the entire way.)

A real pick-me-up bright spot this week was a surprise delivery of these beautiful “thinking of you” flowers, yesterday at work, from my friends Rob & Amy:

I am not totally out of the woods yet, but at least I can now see some sunlight through the leaves.ย  I will get some test results back next week that will confirm exactly what’s been going on.

Honestly, I can’t even worry about that right now. I am so in the moment, enjoying the bliss of a painless morning. I feel normal and healthy and whole and all I have to do this morning is relax, sit back and enjoy being awake, alive and comfortable.

Now, if only I had a donut.*

*which I really shouldn’t be eating right now anyway but…mmmmm…

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5 Responses to I give up…

  1. Urspo says:

    While I was away in Canada I picked up a fresh supply of some herbal tea I want to send to you so you will stop having these nasty bouts.

    Do not dare to question this !

  2. Richard says:

    Cute robe! ๐Ÿ™‚

  3. anne marie in philly says:

    pretty flowers! and nice to see you so “bright eyed and bushy tailed” this fine morning!

    smooches and {{{{{hugs}}}}}!

  4. Raybeard says:

    Not for the first time are you going through your own personal Purgatory (okay, ‘Hell’ is more apt) but I do hope that this chink of light indicates that these current troubles will soon be in the past. You’re never far from our thoughts and always the object of our good wishes, S/b. I do hope that you sleep much better tonight.

  5. raindog469 says:

    With any luck you’re past the point of temptation by now, but you know, you’re a city boy again… I would bet the distance to Dunkin Donuts is measured in feet, not miles ๐Ÿ˜‰

    Hope your day continues to be relaxing.

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