…on trying to sleep any later this morning, that is. I’ve been awake since 4:30 AM and, although I enjoyed lying in the darkness and silence next to my sleeping husband for a bit, I became restless and needed to get up before I woke him.
My current meds seem to be working. I feel better this morning than I have in a long time. It has been a long two weeks, especially this last week, and I don’t honestly know where I found the energy or strength to make it through a week of work, bowling, doctors appointments and a family birthday dinner (with children, no less – IN PUBLIC), but somehow I did. (Honestly, I credit my husband for most of that…he supported me through all of it, yet again, with ne’er a bitch or moan, unlike me who whined the entire way.)
A real pick-me-up bright spot this week was a surprise delivery of these beautiful “thinking of you” flowers, yesterday at work, from my friends Rob & Amy:
I am not totally out of the woods yet, but at least I can now see some sunlight through the leaves. I will get some test results back next week that will confirm exactly what’s been going on.
Honestly, I can’t even worry about that right now. I am so in the moment, enjoying the bliss of a painless morning. I feel normal and healthy and whole and all I have to do this morning is relax, sit back and enjoy being awake, alive and comfortable.
Now, if only I had a donut.*
*which I really shouldn’t be eating right now anyway but…mmmmm…