Aching for relief

I’m going for a small bowl retrograde exam this morning (in lieu of a colonoscopy since I no longer have a colon.) It’s to look for any signs of adhesions, strictures, lesions or tumors that might be adding to my perpetual stomach and bowel discomfort. As luck would have it, I’ve been bloated and crampy all week, so if anything’s going on, they should definitely see it.

It is hard to stay positive and in a good mood when you’re in discomfort 24/7 for an entire week. I’m used to a little bit of pain or discomfort….I can’t remember the last time something didn’t feel uncomfortable or sore; it’s been years. But this has been a bit more and enough to make going to work and even trying to relax at home a bit of a challenge. Believe it or not, I try not to whine about it too much. Other than the big episodes, I don’t think most people know how often want to dope up on mood and mind altering drugs and rip out my insides with a fork. Unfortunately, I have none of those drugs, so I usually take some over the counter med to counteract whatever the issue du jour is and do my best to function or rest and stay as comfortable as possible until it passes or resolves. (You’d think with how often this makes it difficult for me to eat I’d be thin as a rail.) The problem is, as I get older, this status of discomfort is becoming more the rule than the exception and I can’t help wondering what’s in store for me as I get older and things get worse.

Lest I be accused of not finding a silver lining in all of this, if memory serves me correctly, today’s exam comes with a strong dose of sedation so I may just feel comfortable and relaxed for the first time in a week…assuming I’m not too distracted by the cold metal table, the hose up my butt pumping me full of cold thick liquid, and the constant direction to turn this way or that.

And, hey, I got a blog post out of it, so there’s that.

Enjoy your health folks. It’s a true gift.

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6 Responses to Aching for relief

  1. Sending all good and loving thoughts your way. I hope all went well. Years ago I had a “procedure” (that’s what old people call it) and what I remember most about it was laying on the swing (N.B. not ‘sling’) in the backyard on that summer afternoon, and singing over and over in my mind . . . “if I had to choose, just one day to last my whole life through . . . ” I was flying high . . .

  2. anne marie in philly says:

    I second buddy bear!

    more {{{{{hugs}}}}} and smooches and love being sent your way!

  3. Derek says:

    Stay strong mate! Just keep telling yourself that you are loved and that there are others thinking of you.

  4. Buddy Bear says:

    Gosh, Sean…. you’ve had a rough go it recently! I wish you all the best!!

    And thanks for the reminder to everyone about the gift of good health. As you know, I learned that lesson decades ago, but the majority of people don’t appreciate their good health until they become ill.

  5. AjohnP says:

    Sending you lots of hugs and happy thoughts today. I hope all goes well and they can bring you some much needed and well-deserved relief!!!
    xoxo

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