Lost

This song popped up in iTunes on my iPhone as I was walking home today. It  instantly brought tears to my eyes, as it always does.  I first heard it as part of the sound track  while watching “Longtime Companion” for the first time and it remains one of my favorite and most haunting songs to this day for both the sadness and happiness it evokes in me. On one hand, it reminds me of the people I have lost, through death or circumstances, who once played an important role in my life and no longer do. On the other hand, it evokes a wishful fantasy that, at some point down the road, we might just all meet again, our past transgressions and conflicts forgotten, to share a drink, a hug, some laughter and catch up on the years we missed. I don’t believe in an after life, and I have learned that true reconciliations are few and far between (if they ever really happen at all,) but I’m not beyond the ability to wonder, every now and then,  what it would be like to be able to gather all those gone from my life, hug away the pain and loss, and hear their laughter once again; feel their friendly embrace as we hug; see that welcome look in their eye they once had for me as I had for them;  and know that, at least for one more moment in time, we can recall the friendship and camaraderie we once shared and reveled in. I’ve placed the lyrics under the link.  I tried to imbed the video but it didn’t work.

So this goes out to you, Uncle Gordon, and you Clyde, and to all of you who will never read this or hear this song, who no longer think of me well if you ever think of me at all, just to say:  I remember how we used to be and in a better, different world, it’d be nice if we could be that way again, if only for one moment, one drink, one hug.

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Post Mortem Bar

Zane Campbell

When I cleaned out your room
I painted the walls to cover any memories
But still it seemed like you were hovering over
Still out there keeping an eye on me

Yeah I never really was able to tell you
That’s why I’m telling you now that you can’t hear
It’s not gonna be the same around here without you
And I’m holding back a flood behind one tear

And we’ll go down to the post-mortem bar
And catch up on the years that have passed between us
And we’ll tell our stories
Do you remember when the world was just like a carnival opening up

I never thought that I would ever see the day
And I don’t wanna believe it’s true
You were supposed to always be there
And a part of me has died with you

And we’ll go down to the post-mortem bar
And catch up on the years that have passed between us
And we’ll tell our stories
Do you remember when the world was just like a carnival opening up

If I could have one more day with you the way it used to be
All the things I should’ve said would pour out of me

I took a walk I didn’t know which way I was goin’
But somehow or other I ended up here where
We said we’d meet again and I guess I was hopin’
But the place had been closed down a while
It was all dark in there

And we’ll go down to the post-mortem bar
And catch up on the years that have passed between us
And we’ll tell our stories
Do you remember when the world was just like a carnival opening up

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2 Responses to Lost

  1. I’ve never heard the song. Beautiful sentiments . . . looking forward to sharing some smiles and hugs and a drink with you again!

  2. Wow. Extremely emotionally moving lyrics.

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