>Frustration

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I’m not a fan of not being in control of my life, periodic cosmo induced shenanigans aside. I don’t like when people tell me what to do or how to live and I don’t like when my body and or factors beyond my control seem to conspire against me to prevent me from doing what I want to do. I’m not one to give in and buckle easily (well, unless that’s an agreed upon role I’m playing *wink*) so the more challenges that rise, the deeper I dig my heels in and the harder I push back.

Case in point: this week and weekend marked potentially two special events in my life:

  • Returning to the gym on a regular basis for the shedding of unwanted fat, toning of flabby body and improving of mental disposition and well being.
  • Reuniting with some new friends we made at the recent bowling tournament.

The plan:

  • To go to the gym every day after work and do something, anything, just to get in the habit of going.
  • Host two of our new friends for the weekend and maybe even get some tips on my bowling which has been abysmal of late.

Things started off well. I had a great spin class Tuesday. I ran 3.5 miles on the treadmill Wednesday. Plans were progressing for our friends to visit.

Then we started hitting the obstacles.

Our buddies had a house crisis which would require them to stay local for the weekend, but we just reversed plans and we would visit them at their home instead of them visiting us at ours. No biggie.

Then Jeffrey got sick and a doctor’s visit confirmed he had a sinus infection; but we remained confident his new meds would kick in and he would be better for our weekend visit.

Then we had trouble securing a dog sitter last minute, but that panned out well and a friend of ours offered to take care of Clyde for us.

Then, after I got home from the gym yesterday, I started to feel really crappy and crashed hard. This morning, I woke up with a sore throat and am off to the doctor’s for an assessment, in the hope it’s just some non-contagious irritation that can be easily soothed and remedied with lozenges and warm liquids. (Insert sexual innuendo here.)

Oh, and it’s sort of minor in comparison, but I rubbed a small part of my under arm raw yesterday where my iPod holder was strapped to my arm while I was running and listening to iTunes, so that part of my left arm is uncomfortable, despite treating it with Neosporin and covering it with apiece of gauze.

It is hard for me to not get frustrated, shake my fist at the empty sky and scream “Are you fucking kidding me with all this?” But I accept that I am powerless over the incidental and coincidental things that pop in life and all I can do is try my best to resolve them and or alter my plans accordingly.

I’ll be pissed if I don’t feel well enough to make spin class tonight and if we have to cancel plans to see our friends this weekend. Both are things I REALLY want to do. Emphasize on the REALLY.

Alas, life is what happens to us when we’re busy making other plans. If I have to put a positive spin on this whole thing:

  • I am grateful to have a job that allows me to leave for medical appointments,.
  • I am grateful to have affordable health insurance and a doctor available to see me as needed,.
  • I am grateful to have friends who would help us out with Clyde
  • I am grateful to have friends riends who are understanding if we have to cancel plans this weekend.

But, I still want to punch something hard in frustration. Grrrrr!

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4 Responses to >Frustration

  1. RG says:

    >Stop, take in a breath through your nose, and exhale out your mouth. You're 10 centimeters dilated – now push…no wait…sorry, wrong stress….;)

  2. Ron says:

    >Oh I understand so well your frustration. Last Thursday I finally hit a spot in my 'life happens' daily living and I thought I could coast awhile without any crises. Then a windstorm descends upon my fairly new house (with gusts up to 60 mph) and rips off a dozen or so roof shingles on my roof. Yet another fire to put out! Oh yes, I understand frustration. I hope you get a smooth patch soon.

  3. Greg Ohio says:

    >Roll with the punches my friend. While these things annoy us they are merely trivial upsets that we must accept and not feel the need to apologize for. It's always smart to take care of personal physical and mental needs of ones self first. Psstttt I put plenty of sexual innuendo in the spots I was suppose to! Kisses you after your sore throat goes away!

  4. Sue says:

    >Please, you are being way to hard on yourself. Going to the gym EVERY DAY is an unreachable goal. Shit happens. You are a human being, not a machine. Everybody gets sick. You have a fat tire, or a doctor's appointment. Give yourself a break! Don't get your nose all out of joint if you don't make it one day. Let these little things go by; if you stress major over all this little shit, how are you ever going to deal with big problems when they come? So, relax. Have nice cup of herbal tea. Meditate on how good your life is. How nice it is to breathe. What good friends you have. How great your relationship is. How cute your puppy is. What a lucky guy you are. What pretty eyes you have. http://fairviewsue.wordpress.com/

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